| a silver lining.. |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|02:39 pm] |
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to be honest.. up to this very moment i still could not believe that my prof in NEGOTIN actually passed me in his subject. the jaded part of me thinks that he did it because he does not want to see me anymore next term in case there is a reshuffle and he gets to teach NEGOTIn next term again.. the idealisticpart of me states that he may have passed me becase he sees my effort in his subject.. i honestly want to believe the latter one over the first one. while waiting for himto give out the course card, i was in various state of anxiety and nervousness. i felt constipated..and my heart almost leaped out ofmy chest.. i kept on biting my finger.. its my annoying habit which i have a hard time trying to break free. i have thisfeeling that if i bite my nail, the emotional hurt i feel will feel lesser due to the physical pain im inflicting toward myself. morbid? maybe.. but its so hard to end that habit.. its like asking me to stop breathing becase as far as i can remember, i was already biting my finger nails since i was a kid.. well, back to my litany about my card, i know i did my best in his subject and i did all i could possibly have done. anyway, yesterday, we had our test in audprin.. my golly.. it was one of the worst test i have ever seen.. i had a wonderful time guessing what the answer would be.. it was so different test that i was used to.. well, what could i expect since it was a different prof who made the test. i want to cry.. why is it that sometimes, the effort that we place on a task is sometimes not enough even though we did our best? why is life like that? i know that life is not fair but then.. sigh.
friday is the moment of truth.. its course card day.. please please.. i hope i pass all of my subjs.. please... |
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| life's like this.. |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|01:28 pm] |
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the week that was... hmm.. after a gruesome week.. after all the papers that had fallen due finally.. its down to one last paper in AUDPRIN.. adn its down to last two exams for AUDPRIN nad my most feared for subject.. ta-ta-da-dah..NEGOTIN!!!! i feel like its a hopeless situation but i still want to have hope.. its just so hard.. apart from that im also very sad right now. we just had our finals in "an-accounting-subj" and its perfectly normal for professor to use old quizzes.. hey.. everyone has to get use to it ryt? to pass we have to study that but i did not expect my prof to have a gut to use old final exam!! how lazy can he get?? i finished my exam 30 mins before sked coz i could not answer anymore and i did my best already afterward i met a fellow examinee and the latter said that it was all a pure old test and he had just shuffle a bit of it.. they finished the exam 30 mins after start!! our exam was worth more than two hrs.. i didn't know if i should cry or laugh.. i could not blame my fellow classmate because its every students right to study any material that he/she may get his/her hand on..ryt? i mean what kind of a prof repeats an entire exam? i understand if its a mixture of several ones but coming from only one test? my goodness... its too darn annoying. enough said about dat prof but its also because of him that i will not go home at the time im planning to go home because he insist on meeting us because its "very impt" aarrggghhh...
anyway.. i hope i pass all my subjs this term pls.. pls.. i did my best.. i just hope that its enough... |
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| life is not fair.... |
[Apr. 2nd, 2005|02:26 pm] |
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| | power of the dream | ] |
its the aftermath of our report in CONACT1.. well its not bad for a presentation that was rushed. i was really annoyed with my professor because, he was the one who was absent last tuesday that was when we were suppose to report and kami pa ung nag-ayos.. can you believe his gut?? man i hate it... next week is finals week and i am honestly very very scared.. i dont know what will happen.. im doing my best to catch up i hope its enough.. i hope the saying " do your best and God will do the rest" stills apply in the world nowadays. man i have a lot of papers to do.. on top of that i have to worry about my finals. im excited for summer to come.. but boy am i going nuts as of this moment.. |
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| hell... |
[Mar. 31st, 2005|03:58 pm] |
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term is about to end.. once more.. but instead of feeling relieved by the fact that summer isa bout to start.. icannot help but feel depress... i feel like im haging at the end of the hangman's rope in ny NEGOTIN subject.. wat hurts most is that i study!! for goodness sake!!! i do.. but it doesn't seem enough.. my prof gives me an ultimate low grade in recitation.. i hate it!! whats more sad is that most of my frineds in high school is relaxing already but here i am worried sick of what will happen at finals week.. i know ishould have gotten use of this type of situation since i am an incoming-senior but still, i can't help be feel so sad.. another thing, end of the term means i need to pay tuition feel again.. its not like the tuition fee in lasalle is cheap for goodness sake.. it isn't !!! arrgghhh.. for further complicate things, i have tons and tons of paper to complete.. i want to cry.. im feeling so sad... God help me be able to get through this term with an ok grade.. AARRGGHHH.. sigh.. |
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